My life has truly changed so much. I used to meet friends every day, chat over coffee with people, and enjoy drinks in the evening. Work was almost my life, and eating, drinking, and having coffee with my colleagues was more common than meeting friends. I lived a bustling life surrounded by people, but after … 더 읽기
제 인생은 정말 많이 바뀌었습니다. 예전에는 매일같이 친구들을 만나고, 사람들과 커피를 마시며 이야기하고, 저녁에는 술도 한잔 기울이며 즐겁게 어울렸습니다. 거의 일하는 것이 곧 삶이었고, 친구들을 만나는 것보다 함께 일하는 동료들과 밥 먹고 술 마시고 커피 마시는 것이 일상이었습니다. 그렇게 사람들과 북적이며 살았는데, 다친 후로는 누구를 만나는 것 자체가 어려워졌습니다. 저도 사람들과 제대로 이야기를 나누는 것이 … 더 읽기
I’ve been to prayer retreats a few times in my life. The most recent memory is attending a three-day worship session with many people at a prayer retreat in Itaewon. I also remember the pastor praying for me when I got married. Today, when my mother-in-law suggested we go to a prayer retreat, these memories … 더 읽기
제 인생 동안 기도원을 몇 번 가본 적이 있습니다. 그중 가장 가까운 기억은 이태원에 있는 기도원에서 많은 사람들과 함께 3일 동안 예배했던 것입니다. 그리고 결혼할 때 목사님께서 저를 위해 기도를 해주셨던 기억도 있습니다. 그런데 오늘 장모님과 함께 기도를 하러 가자고 하셔서 그 기억들이 떠올랐습니다. 그나마 장모님과 목사님과의 관계 덕분에 제 마음이 조금은 편안하게 느껴졌습니다. 솔직히 … 더 읽기
“I must die. I should commit suicide.” During my hardest times, this was the only thought that dominated my mind. I couldn’t think of anything else. People told me, “Think of your mom,” “Think of your dad,” “Think of your wife,” “Think of your sons,” but my mind at that time couldn’t accept any of … 더 읽기
“죽어야 한다. 자살을 하자.” 제가 가장 힘들었던 시기, 제 머릿속을 지배했던 생각은 오직 이것뿐이었습니다. 아무것도 생각할 수 없었습니다. 사람들은 제게 “엄마를 생각해라”, “아빠를 생각해라”, “아내를 생각해라”, “아들들을 생각해라” 하고 말했지만, 그때의 제 마음은 그 어떤 것도 받아들일 수 없었습니다. 그들의 말이 귀에 들어오지 않았고, 마음에도 와닿지 않았습니다. 오직 ‘나’라는 존재만이 있었습니다. 제 마음이 너무나 아파서, … 더 읽기
For two or three years, we had planned to change our home’s location. We really liked our current house. The children’s school location was good, and their relationships with their good friends continued to be strong. One of the biggest reasons my wife moved to this neighborhood was also due to her elementary school assignment. … 더 읽기
Lately, I haven’t been going outside much at all; just brief strolls with Dad around the library. I barely used my phone and didn’t check the weather or watch TV. So, I had no idea if it was hot outside. Dad seemed to be managing the heat, but strangely, I just felt continuously warm. I … 더 읽기
I used to have so many friends around me. We’d meet up, chat, drink coffee, and share drinks, enjoying lively times with many people. But after my major injury, many of those connections have faded or been lost. As time passed and I wasn’t the same as before, friends naturally drifted away. Honestly, it’s upsetting, … 더 읽기
I met the other parents of my children today. The parents of my first and second children gathered, seemingly to play soccer. I, too, had always loved soccer. There’s a soccer field near our home, and I used to kick the ball around with my kids there a bit. The adult men would watch the … 더 읽기