Many people keep talking to me. I seem to be speaking, but I can’t quite remember what I’ve said. People tell me I spoke… I’m grateful. I vaguely recall struggling with Broca’s aphasia and Wernicke’s aphasia. I kept asking my wife, and she kindly explains, “This is Broca’s aphasia, and this is Wernicke’s aphasia.”
Then I’d respond, “Okay, I understand~ Thank you.” But shortly after, what I said and what my wife explained would vanish from my memory. Then, after going about my day normally, I’d suddenly wonder again, “What does this mean? I saw something about aphasia on YouTube, but I’m not sure if it’s Broca’s or Wernicke’s. Which one is closer to what I have?”
Then my wife would explain again, “This is Broca’s aphasia, and this is Wernicke’s aphasia.” I hear the same explanation repeated countless times. “Oh… thank you…” And then, once again, the memory disappears. It’s a continuous cycle of this.
Even now, it’s difficult to accurately assess my physical condition. It’s even harder because it’s not something I can directly observe with my eyes. My wife says there are 7-8 different types of aphasia, including Broca’s and Wernicke’s. She tells me that Broca’s aphasia is similar to the symptoms I have.
Today, I’m studying again. While studying, thoughts of “Why did I get hurt?” and “Why did I become like this?” suddenly pop into my mind. Then those thoughts disappear again. Little by little, the fact that I was seriously injured becomes clearer. As this happens, I constantly think, “How long do I have to study?” A sense of frustration, like walking through an endless tunnel, washes over me.