As you read my writing, I feel I must tell you the truth, lest you think I’m doing well. Even now, speaking is incredibly difficult for me. Even as I write, forming proper sentences is a struggle. I’m writing this in the hope of clearly explaining my situation to people, to offer even a little help.
Yesterday, when I met the professor at the hospital, I desperately wanted to talk about so many things. I wanted to ask in detail what would happen next and what I needed to do. But in my current state, I can’t properly express those feelings.
Only meaningless sounds come out, like: “뇌뇌되롸오ㅓ레 아라네되라카가 아라자리하고 ㅏㅁ나케파가르다가.”
The only words I can manage to utter are formal sentences like, “Yes, Professor, thank you for helping me.”
The professor would speak at length, saying things like: “네어라ㅣ되오라ㅣㅓ 아라메내뎌바 ㄴ아어ㅔ나ㅡㄹ미ㅏㄴㅇ,” but the only questions I could ask were fragmented ones like, “When will my body get better?” It’s incredibly difficult to express what’s truly deep in my heart.
Even after studying for a year and a half, I still can’t speak properly. I should have studied more. Studying now is like very young children learning Korean for the first time. I am still studying Korean again. I want to fully express what’s in my heart right now, but when it doesn’t work out, I eventually give up. As I repeatedly try to talk to people only to be frustrated and give up, naturally, the frequency of my meetings with people has decreased, and now I hardly meet anyone. Since it’s almost impossible for me to speak, I can’t convey what I want to say to others, and when they speak to me, I don’t understand, leaving both of us frustrated.
Fading Connections, and the Remaining Family
Living like this, everyone around me is now disappearing. After a year and a half, almost everyone has left my side. Only my family remains. But I am so incredibly grateful just to have my family by my side. The ability for my family to endure this difficult time largely comes down to the power of money. If we didn’t have money, if we were even a little financially strained, it would have been difficult to receive my family’s help as I do now, and I wouldn’t have been able to do anything. I am truly grateful to my family who are helping me like this.
Why I Write
I am still studying, but I am still very much lacking. However, I want to help other injured people who read my writings online, even if it’s just a little. That is why I am writing these difficult words even now.
If there are people like me who have lost hope and want to die, this is what I want to tell them: It’s hard, but I keep writing because I want to live more, and I want to help others.
The reason I’m writing this today is because I met the professor yesterday and heard that “my body has improved.” I wanted to tell you my true feelings from the beginning, in case I appeared as though I had completely recovered. I still have a long way to go, and there will be many more moments of frustration.
✅ Simple, Repetitive Word Practice – Speech Support (English)
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