Autumn is here now. I continue to study, exercise with my dad, and live a life of repeating study and exercise every day. The biggest change is that I now go to the hospital twice a week instead of three. I suppose that means my body is getting a little better. I had a really hard time, my dad had a hard time, and the many people who helped me also went through a difficult time.
At first, my children and wife would say they were so relieved and happy just that I was alive. But as time goes on, I feel like I am becoming more of a burden to my family. My son seems to feel that Dad is no longer a helpful person, and he seems frustrated with me because he can’t understand what I say well. My wife also helps me, but I feel that it’s becoming too much and uncomfortable for her to take care of me on top of all the other things she has to do.
There’s a saying, “three years of filial piety.” That’s right. There was that saying, but now even one year feels like a truly difficult time. In today’s world, a year feels so arduous. I also saw someone at the hospital. He worked and studied really hard for a year, but things didn’t work out for him. As a result, his relationship with his wife became difficult, and his work wasn’t going well, so it seemed he was suffering from depression. Of course, this is a natural progression, and seeing him, I too lived a life of oscillating between the hope of ‘I want to work again’ and feelings of ‘I am depressed.’
One thing that has changed from before is that when the thought of ‘I must die’ used to come up, I thought that my mom, dad, wife, and children didn’t exist. But now, I cannot bring myself to die when I think of my beloved family. Of course, words like ‘I must die’ and ‘I want to die’ do still come out. But it’s different from before, a new strength that has made me into a person who is so tired, depressed, angry, and truly helpless. Nevertheless, autumn has arrived. I have no idea what will happen to my life in the future, but time is passing by steadily. I hope my time will also get better quickly.
✅ Simple, Repetitive Word Practice – Speech Support (English)
- Washing machine Washing machine Washing machine Washing machine Washing machine Washing machine Washing machine Washing machine Washing machine Washing machine
- Lemon Lemon Lemon Lemon Lemon Lemon Lemon Lemon Lemon Lemon
- Towel Towel Towel Towel Towel Towel Towel Towel Towel Towel
- Fish Fish Fish Fish Fish Fish Fish Fish Fish Fish
- Brush Brush Brush Brush Brush Brush Brush Brush Brush Brush
- Scissors Scissors Scissors Scissors Scissors Scissors Scissors Scissors Scissors Scissors
- Cup Cup Cup Cup Cup Cup Cup Cup Cup Cup
- Hammer Hammer Hammer Hammer Hammer Hammer Hammer Hammer Hammer Hammer
- Pencil Pencil Pencil Pencil Pencil Pencil Pencil Pencil Pencil Pencil
- Toilet paper Toilet paper Toilet paper Toilet paper Toilet paper Toilet paper Toilet paper Toilet paper Toilet paper Toilet paper
- Helicopter Helicopter Helicopter Helicopter Helicopter Helicopter Helicopter Helicopter Helicopter Helicopter
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- Monkey Monkey Monkey Monkey Monkey Monkey Monkey Monkey Monkey Monkey
- Snake Snake Snake Snake Snake Snake Snake Snake Snake Snake
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