Chapter 21: A Confession in Recovery – “Wrestling with Memory, and My Wife’s Devotion”

Starting today, I plan to begin cleaning. Before starting any task, I feel the need to organize my surroundings. Even if I’m not good at cleaning, I wanted to do it myself now. But once I actually started, I felt overwhelmed. “How should I clean? I want it to be spotless, but what should I do first?” I was lost in thought. “Hmm… I’m trying to clean… what kind of cleaning should I do? How should I do it?” Questions piled up. “I need to clean… but why am I trying to clean?” There were even moments when my purpose became unclear. My mind was in chaos.

Then, as I tried to organize my thoughts, I suddenly couldn’t even remember what I was trying to do or why I was sitting there. “Hmm… what was I thinking of doing? What task was I about to start?” In an instant, everything vanished like a blank page. What I had just been clearly thinking and saying disappeared in a flash. I sat there blankly for a moment. Then, suddenly, it came back to me. “Ah, right. I was going to clean. I need to clean.” This time, I looked up how to use the vacuum cleaner. “Hmm… if I press this, it’ll start.” Thankfully, I remembered how to use it. Phew, that’s a relief. And I started cleaning again. As I vacuumed, it felt like I had accomplished everything. I did as much as I possibly could. But honestly, I can’t even tell if the cleaning was perfectly finished or if I stopped midway.

Even at this moment, my wife’s worried face comes to mind. She can help me until February, but after that, she’ll need to focus on her own studies, which worries me. Anxiety washes over me, wondering what will happen if she’s not by my side. My wife helps me every day, telling me I should study harder even now. Hmm… my wife and I have been studying together continuously since the beginning. All day long, she held my hand and taught me various things. But… now that I think about it, I can’t clearly recall what we studied back then. I definitely remember studying every day, but it’s heartbreaking for me that the content doesn’t play back clearly, and it’s even more frustrating for my wife. However, they say I was able to recover in so many ways because of my wife’s devoted help. At the time when I was struggling the most, my wife’s tireless efforts played a crucial role in improving my brain. I feel sorry that my memory isn’t intact enough to remember all of her efforts, but I believe I’ve gotten so much better thanks to my wife’s diligent teaching every single day. I’m truly grateful to my wife. Without her warm heart and dedication, I wouldn’t be who I am today.


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