병원을 그만두었습니다. 의사 선생님들께서는 저에게 “조금만 더 치료합시다”라고 말씀하셨습니다. 아내도, 엄마도, 아빠도 말했습니다. “병원에서 조금만 더 있어 보자.” 그들은 제가 아직 완전한 회복 단계에 이르지 못했고, 지속적인 전문적인 치료가 필요하다는 것을 알고 있었을 것입니다. 하지만 저는 그들의 말을 따르기 너무 힘들었습니다. 정말 너무 힘들었습니다. 병원에 있는 것이, 죽을 것처럼 힘들었습니다. 뇌졸중으로 인한 후유증과 언어 장애, … 더 읽기
2023년 12월 20일, 저의 병원에서의 시간이 시작되었습니다. 뇌졸중이라는 진단을 받고, 뇌출혈로 인해 뇌의 여러 부분이 손상되어 의식을 잃고 쓰러졌습니다. 특히 언어 중추인 브로카와 베르니케 영역에 큰 손상을 입어, 말을 하고 이해하는 데 심각한 어려움을 겪게 되었습니다. 의사 선생님들은 제가 30군데 이상 뇌를 다쳤다고 말씀하셨습니다. 그 후로 길고 힘든 싸움이 시작되었습니다. 아직 모든 것이 완전히 끝난 … 더 읽기
I was waiting to take a shower. As I prepared to wash myself with the help of a caregiver, it suddenly struck me that I had no memory whatsoever of what I’d been thinking or how I’d been cleaning myself all this time. This realization was a huge shock. So, I cautiously asked my wife, … 더 읽기
My wife and I talk little by little. Of course, it’s still hard for me to form complete sentences, and my wife often interprets and completes what I’m trying to say. Nevertheless, sitting face-to-face and talking like this feels genuinely good. It felt like we were attempting a deep conversation after a long time. During … 더 읽기
There’s no “work” to do at the hospital, at least not in the meaningful, productive sense I used to know. But this is my work. In fact, it’s the most important work I have right now. Every day, at a set time, I undergo physical therapy. Therapists assist me for 50 minutes. They help me … 더 읽기
After meeting my mom and younger sibling, I’ve felt a little better. Their voices, touches, and gazes reawakened forgotten emotions within me. My mom’s warm hand brought back memories of her caressing me as a child, and my sibling’s playful smile made me feel the bond of brotherhood once more. Since being hospitalized, I’ve been … 더 읽기
Today, I suddenly opened my eyes, and my wife was there at home. To be precise, it wasn’t ‘home’. It was still a hospital room, but my wife was here taking care of me. I was so surprised, but at the same time, a wave of relief washed over me. It was the moment I … 더 읽기
Even now, meeting people makes me happy. However, at the same time, I wonder if people are curious about my current condition. The last moment I remember is thinking I needed to shower because I was so cold, and that I should tell my son, “My head hurts.” But after that thought, I have absolutely … 더 읽기
My vision is finally clearing. The blurry sight gradually sharpened, bringing the white ceiling and walls of the unfamiliar hospital room into focus. Although the medical staff and my family told me this was a hospital, for the first few days, I had no idea why I was there or what had happened. ‘Why am … 더 읽기
샤워를 하려고 기다렸습니다. 간병인의 도움을 받아 몸을 씻을 준비를 하면서 문득, 그동안 제가 어떤 생각을 하며 지냈는지, 혹은 어떻게 씻고 지냈는지 전혀 기억나지 않는다는 사실에 큰 충격을 받았습니다. 그래서 아내에게 조심스럽게 물었습니다. “그동안, 나는 어떻게 샤워를 했었어?” 아내는 잠시 망설이더니, 조심스럽게 이야기를 시작했습니다. 처음 제가 의식을 잃고 병원에 실려 왔을 때, 스스로는 아무것도 할 수 … 더 읽기